Spyke's Blog

2010-05-26T15:41:00.002+08:00

new bike.
Been towed away to workshop just now.
Piston Ring, Valve system and Clutch plate are all down.
Cnt even get the bike to move.
just like wtf man!

2010-04-07T10:08:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Resign from Shell Company 31 march.

and yea,yesterday was my first day at Pizza Hut..

im almost half insane bcoz of their stupid bike.

so.ntg much lah. just as pernormal.

it is work. so yea,i would lie if i say its nt tiring.

.,,hmm.

i miss someone.

thats all i guess.

take care peeps!

2010-03-21T08:15:00.003+08:00

So.
Things have been very complicated this few days.
but nvm. just FUCK CARE.
fuck care till my bloody heart comes out. alright?
had given my resignation letter.
by 28 of March,ill be gone. hoho! cnt wait.
taking rest for a week i think.
and yea,to Pizza Hut next.
hmm...for days i've been keeping something to myself.
its painful though.
but yea,was planing to go somewhere thats peaceful to shout and scream it all out.
maybe later on.
still finding the right location.
so yea,thats all i guess.
take care peeps.
CHAOWS!

2010-03-13T07:37:00.004+08:00

Alright. School has ended.

Maybe i have the time to update my blog again.

my Blog is considered Dead i guess.

and now im reviving it.

so..i just came back from work.

its the most freaking tiring day i ever had.

from 3pm yesterday till 7am today.

16 hours of working. Imagine how miserable it was.

and later on working at 6pm. i just gt few hours of sleep i guess.

friends from pizza hut has been coming to shell just to pull me up to be thier Pizza hut rider.

should i join them.?

i havent make any decision yet though.

but confirm plus chop im quiting at this end of the month.

cnt help myself to work anymore.

great friends from there had leave me to be a loner working in shell.

yea, they resign.

and today,my dear love also resign.

like wtf man. i cant help it but to resign as well by end of this month.

hais.

so.. thats all i guess.

take care peeps.

ill update more soon

Chaows!

2010-02-11T12:11:00.003+08:00

For some reasons. My blog is dead.
I knw. Well,im too busy with work and school.

Thats all i got to say.

give me some time.

i will find a way to make myself free and update again.

And yea,today im OFF. Nt Working. lol!

but still. I gtg to school later on. dammit. lol!

okay,there's test today. My Class test.

i didnt study a single shit.

so lets just say im depending on my LUCK.

Or maybe just a small quantity of Brain Power will guide me through.

haha!

kay,thats all i guess..

I'll Update soon Peeps!.

Take Care.

2010-01-03T02:22:00.005+08:00

Well..

today was great. i think.

lol! sleeping all day long at home.

yea,thats why its great:)

yet to come,

singapore is fucking strict.

too strict till which i think twice before killing people.

and yea,that person is 100% for sure gonna be my first target.

a person that is fucking HYPOCRITE:)

let me rephrase it in other words. "TWO FACE BUSTED".

nvm...im chilling.

listening to a song called "relax,take it easy" by Mika.

RELAX! Take IT EEEEAASSSYY~

lol!

such a wonderful song that will always keep you relax:)

so thats all i guess.

CHAOWS!

2009-12-29T06:39:00.003+08:00

From the moment we wore specs,

to the moment we wear contact lense.

things that happened like you and me have been very complicated.

From the moment u look at me,

to the moment i look at you.

we both knows that fate doesnt tears us apart.

From the moment you wrote at your diary,

to the moment i wrote at my blog.

my feelings for you had never change.

so...IM JUST LOST!

till to the extend,i find myself going INSANE.

i've tried to explain. i've tried to confront.

i've even tried every single little thing.

just to prove that all this while, you were the one i need the MOST.

but...things just wont work out i guess.

im WASTED. maybe thats just it.

so...From the day you wrote about me,

to the moment my heart stops beating...

Having your love will be a place for heaven when i close my eyes forever.

“The brightest star on my horizon, a billion stars shine in my heart, with a billion hours keeps us apart.”

2009-12-28T06:38:00.004+08:00

Spain's No.1

BIG HUG!

Spyke And Arif.

oh well.

Insomnia is back.

Cnt get to sleep.

So pissed.

And one more thing!

im coughing Blood!

coolness!

so thats all i guess.

Chaows!

2009-12-23T17:41:00.002+08:00

My Bro. May he replace me when im gone. PUNKS NOT DEAD brother!

SO,what should i update?

hmm..nvm.

Im totally lost right now.

i totally miss someone right now.

someone who will always be a favourite of mine.

so thats all i guess...

chaows!

2009-12-20T03:27:00.006+08:00

YAMAHA R125!

Okay...this holiday was a good one.
i spent every mins enjoying the moment i had.
im working as a KFC delivery soon. lol!
so yea,im using their bike as a transportation.
cn wait to lay my hands on that HONDA WAVE 125. lol!
im so gonna destroy it once it reaches my hand.
haha!
so..lately been working at hotel as a waiter.
Conrad Hotel.
So like no life man! damn,i hate Hotel line!
cn wait to get out of there.
I start working as a KFC delivery this Monday!
just cnt wait!.
so yea,thats all i guess...
take care peeps!
chaows!

2009-12-04T00:15:00.003+08:00

Well...

first thing...

im going INSANE.

lots of thing happen...

and i guess it happen for a reason..

My cleopatra is out with her "boyfriend".

yea,that guy...whats his name again? ohh...its Jubo!

and im stuck here at home.

what type of girl who has a SAYANG right here but go out with another guy.

plus,the guy declared that he likes her...wtf!

baek punye...

man,what a life.

im soo not into love anymore...

so here's what i got to say..

to Cleopatra,if you think he is good enough for you,then go ahead. My lost is your gain..happy?

and to that Jubo! go ahead,if thats what you want...best man wins...okay? happy?

settle!

i dont bother anymore..

all i care about right nw is....

thats right! my baby Rs 125..im so thankful to you for being there for me all the time..even if ure not alive,cnt talk...but at least u'll be there whenever i need you.only a bit problem baby,u ask too much! haha! but nvm,im okay with it:)

2009-11-25T00:17:00.015+08:00

i was walking and i saw this bike...Park Outside my school...well,Its my Bike! No lah,just joking! Mine! No! Mine! No! Mine! No! Mine! eh,no lah! nvm,just scroll down..
My Son! lol!...joking!

Read Between The Lines.
Behind the Scene. Haha! IDIOT! ofcoz its mine! My baby Rs 125 and My Cleopatra:)

i got no ideas to update man...

so i guess...till here then..

VROOM! VROOM!

there goes my bike...lol!

2009-11-15T15:17:00.007+08:00

First Thing..

to that fucker!

i just wanna say...ure HAM-JI

kental! buah kt tekak uh siol!

haha! sentol peh anak!

what? replacing me? haha! fuck you!

hello! there wont be the second Spyke..

im me and ur not me! dammit!

no one will replace me...not even anyone..

setakat kau.....small the pieces man!

buah kt tekak lagi ade hati nak jadi aku..sentol!

hahaahaha! u SICKO BUSTED!

there will revenge...dont think i forget!

just watch ur back! dammit! kau tngu aku aje!

okay...

hmmm...

oh yea...feeling great this few days...

and the best part was....

my dad's friend gave me a bike..lol!

so now i got two of it.! coolness!

but yea,its just an old bike for transportation..

but still,its worth after all:)

so...thats all i guess...take care!

2009-11-08T02:43:00.012+08:00

My Cleopatra:)

Farhanah,Me and Zufee!
He's Back from NS! free style freeze! lol! Ours! Zufee and Timothy Wen Bin and Me:) LPD lesson:) Candid!

So ...

went out with my classmates on Friday.

Zufee,Farhanah and Timothy was there.

but overall..was fun though.

with every jokes made by timothy and zufee..

im soo loving it..lol!

walk here and there with no sense of direction. lol!

after that went for Sheesha-ing with them...

then went home and meet Yun for awhile.

that day,was great.

i dunno why..but it just felt great.

i lost all my depression,tension and many more...

soo coolness...

so....thats all i guess...

and almost forget...

arif is back....

but for just a few days.

but im so glad to see him...

so...yea,take care

Chaows!

2009-11-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

idk when im gonna give it.
come on spyke. you can do this.

2009-10-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

idk whats with me.
im wasting my breath talking to a picture of her even when i know she wont reply.
i got no other person to rely on.
coz i dont trust anyone else at this point of time.
except for my family members.
everything change.
i feel like i've wasted 18 years of my life living.
when i know i was suppose to go at age of 3 months old.
i regret that they brought me back to this world.
i see that there's alot more reason for me to be gone then living.
i could even leave a few thousand reasons of why i should'nt be here.

2009-10-20T02:33:00.004+08:00

im lost.
im like here,but my mind is like in Bermuda Triangle.
its because of you i became like this.
everything is because of you.
i got no where else to run coz it keeps coming back.
i have to face it.
till the day when i hear it from ur own mouth.
then my problems will end there.
i cant wait. seriously.
i've been tortured for years.
im not dead yet,but already i can feel like im living in HELL.
your HEAVEN is my HELL. maybe thats how it suppose to be.
i just want the answer when i come back.
make sure u'll give me a perfect answer this time.
not a 50-50 answer.
thats all i guess.
CHAOWS!

2009-10-18T14:03:00.008+08:00

TZE MEI.
YISHUN SEC REPORT BOOK

CANDID:)
A remembrance of someone who used to smoke "NEXT CHILL" and i confiscate it from her.LOL!

Im not into my own RACE.

Keep that in mind!

chaows!

2009-10-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

Gonna pack up.
im getting fuck up.
she has her own attitude that causes a total destruction.
and he...MIA. Didnt come home after all those shit.
so....its unfair towards us.
Especially for my bro whose having his PSLE.
WHATTHEFUCK man!
im going.
Somewhere thats peaceful.
CHAOWS!

2009-10-10T06:08:00.003+08:00

It happen for a stupid reasons.
and it did bring out my tears for a short moment.
i didnt expect it to happen.
but too bad it did.
as from today onwards,
i lead my own life,
my own way,
and my own stand.
no one will stop me. no one.
there are no such things as PRECIOUS and LOVE ONES anymore.
they are all GONE.

2009-10-06T05:11:00.004+08:00

:)
So yesterday..

was having my circuit revision.

practicing all those circuit and suddenly boom!

the front tire of the bike skided.

i dont even know how it skided coz i dont even touch the brake or clutch.

and yeap,i fall...

the bike landed on my left leg.

and the crash bar hit my leg real hard.

so...my leg is swollen like hell...

the wound didnt hurt...

but my left leg is in a bad shape coz the bike landed on my leg.

imagine a few hundreds of kilogram landed on ur leg just like that...

i walk like a cripple right now...lol!

but overall was okay lah...

i can still walk...thats good enough for me.

hopefully it will be okay before my Traffic Police test.

on the second thought,

maybe my body posture was incorrect.

so thats the reason it skided.

well...it has happen...

nothing much to say though.

thats all i guess..

CHAOWS!

2009-10-04T01:27:00.007+08:00

Traffic Police Test
05/11/09
Cant wait...
im done with all the Practical.
I Miss You. I Miss The Song. I Miss You. I Miss The Song.
Yet, I Miss The Old times when We're having those Good times.
No Fighting,nor quarreling. Just You and Me smiling .
Looking at each other Eyes.
So why does it have to end this way when you know it could be a Better Moment then what you ever Dream off?
The worst part was,Im going Crazy every single day because it had to happen this way.
I Talk to myself. I Talk To my pet Cat. I Talk to a Picture of You. I even Talk to an Imaginary You.
So what does it takes to make You come back?
I really need you by my side.

2009-09-29T13:24:00.004+08:00

Woke up from a stupid dream today.
she's inside that dream..
man,almost got me killed by a heart attack.
well i hope it dont turn into reality thats all.
im almost half dead in that dream..
so imagine what if it happens in the reality.
im freak out right now. lol!
but...hopefully it wont happen.

2009-09-26T19:48:00.002+08:00

Sooo....say good bye to my HTC dream...

This is what im left with.

So...

sold off my HTC DREAM...

cant help it...

the person gave me a good price.

im gonna miss that phone alot.

it cost me $700+ dude!..

so yea,im left with E71 and N95.

thank god the N95 is still there.

so....today,went off early in the morning.

around 9am...to sell off my phone.

sold it to a direct owner since i lost alot if i were to sell it at those freaking phone shop.

meet him at Compass Point

and done! He love the condition of the phone so much coz it looks new.

ofcoz! its a 1 month old phone dammit! lol!

plus it got alot of funtionality...

just that im not use to using it.

soo...later then went SSDC to book my practical lesson.

just cant wait for the practical lesson man.

and i just cnt wait to get my license.

i bet by the end of october...im done

just 2 more practical lessons to go.

and after that Traffic Police Test.

then a qualified motorbike driving licence. Wooohooo.!

i cant wait to ride my freaking bike...shit!

imagine having a bike but without a license. that suck!

thats what im dealing right now. haiyo!

so...thats all i guess...

CHAOWS!

2009-09-24T19:52:00.004+08:00

My N95!!! :)

Oh yea,got back my n95.!

so happy! extremely happy!

repair + New original Casing total cost me about $115.

but yea,the best part was....everything is still inside. Wooohoo!

those messages plus many more lah...lol!

so....

just wanna say.

ONE STONE KILL TWO BIRDs.

COOLNESS! baek punye!

was meant for someone else.

but infact other people felt the pinch.

again! BAEK PUNYE!

so...

thats all i guess...

SAYONARA FUCKERS!

i meant for those assholes..

not u guys.

CHAOWS!

2009-09-22T14:56:00.002+08:00

Still got the thought to slack under my block.
My hand is still itching to hit you in the face.
i wont forget what you've said to me.
You'll see...
there will be revenge:)

2009-09-20T05:53:00.009+08:00

:-P

Tze Mei
"im gonna hit ya with this helmet" I love you dad...

PEACE:)

Sooo...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my fellow mates.

Forgive me if i did something that offended you guys.

lets start a new chapter....

and forget all those ugly past.

though,some people just cant forget the past.

but yea,its up to u guys now to forgive and forget.

so...again! SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.

lets have some fun...! :)

TAKE CARE.!

2009-09-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

Im Happy.
Yet Sad..
but excited..
though disppointed.
Man,just dunno what im thinking right now.

2009-09-19T14:48:00.004+08:00

You Won.
I lost...
Congratulations!
Coz u've kill me for the Second time.
And as for you.
Ur words, were like Shit.
everything is a lie..remember?
and not to forget,"i hate him!".
thats what you said.
and in the end. U can go suck his BLOODY DICK! :)
or maybe,u've did it already.
thats the reason why u became like this
agree people? well...i agree...
so. FUCK YOU!FUCKOFF!

2009-09-17T06:06:00.002+08:00

Few more days to go..
until its done with fasting month.
im so excited! freaking excited.
so! i dunno why the fuck am i updating early in the morning.
just that...i feel like it. LOL!
And And later on going Geylang to get my Baju Kurong.!
so this year,what colour should it be...?
hmm....im guessing it should be Lime Green:)
And And i've been staring at this picture of me and her for hours!.
idk why...but yea,im miss her so much.
it always have to happen this way..damn! wtf!
it nvr fades. idk why im waiting.
can anyone just tell me why the heck am i waiting?
but part of me just telling myself to just ignore it.
so...idk.
maybe its fated to be this way. i guess so.
hmm...yea,im gonna put it aside right now.
okay. whats more?
oh yea,i've fix my N95 ..
cost me 60 bucks! bloody hell!
but on the second thought.
im happy to see all those things back.
Pictures,messages and many many more! haha!
so,just a new housing for the phone and im sure it will look brand new.
i wonder how much the freaking housing will cause me this time.
and! i freaking miss all those SAYANG2 messages from her. lol!
i even transfer it to my E71 just incase. hahahaha! wtf!
im like a sicko though...
but who cares!
so yea,thats all i guess..
take care:)
chaows!

Every Day Is A Tragedy.

2009-09-16T05:16:00.003+08:00

When im awake at night....sometimes i picture you.
And hear those words again you said, "IM LEAVING"..
I couldnt hold you down...and not expect that you would drown.
Im just a fool...till everyone's laughing.
Well...I'm not sure what it was that led us down a dead-end road
and some of those signs you gave could be quite deceiving.
I knew your favourite things though.
but didnt know that one of them was him.

2009-09-14T03:05:00.009+08:00

Overall.....

Smile:)

Peace:)
DC-shoe-Cousa
A present from someone..thanks:)
My new shoes:)

Well....thats all i guess.

just pictures:)

2009-09-14T02:24:00.004+08:00

Click to enlarge:)
Primary 6. Im on the first row,3rd person from the right.

Secondary 2. Again im on the first row,3rd person from the right.

Secondary 3. im on the second row,3rd person from the right

So it seems like every single class photo..

i would always be the third person. lol! wtf!

okay...thats all i guess...

CHAOWS!

2009-09-11T05:41:00.002+08:00

Well...
its a 1 month holiday...
and just a few days of staying at home really rots me up to death.
I need a job...
so yea,later on having a job interview.
thank god!
hopefully i got the job.
im sick of staying at home.
seriously.
so....wish me luck peeps.
thats all for today i guess..
take care ...
chaows!

2009-09-10T05:38:00.005+08:00

Pause up my profile song and listen to this!

One of my favourite song for my love ones

thats all i guess..

CHAOWS!

2009-09-09T05:33:00.003+08:00

(chocolate kills 95% of my disappointment)

Oh well...
went out...
didnt break fast at home due to some problems.
so yea...went riding...
was paranoid though.
and almost got into a fight with two mother fucking indians.
but somehow someone drift my vision away..
didnt thought that she would appear in the middle of my boiling point.
at the first look...
she change my full concerntration of having a fight into a calm idiotic person.
didnt expect that would happen so fast.
so yea,after that...
sat under block 222...
waited for the exact time to break fast.
and oh yea, Ice Lemon Tea + a few sticks of cigarettes..
that will do for the time being.
so yea,havent break my fast so far...
so yea,was aiming to get full for this year...Insya-allah.
and after that....let enjoy during HARI RAYA moment!
woooohoo! man!,im so excited:)

2009-09-06T03:30:00.000+08:00

Oh yea..
created my own blogskin..
yea,u heard it right...
create it my self...
all those stupid codes..
but its worth afterall..
it came out the way i want it..
well....its been a long time i didnt update..
so yea,here's another freaking update:)
so..
two days ago...
i felt like crying...
after seeing a cat died infront of me.
A car hit a cat...and it died infront of me!
it was at the carpark near my block..
the driver...who was a SHE...
thought she hit a PLASTIC BAG...
but it was actually a Cat dammit!
and plus she didnt notice it! you bitch!
till we have to stop and tell her that she just hit a cat.
the cat was struggling on his last breath.
and POOF! a few mins later...He's gone:(
yea,its a male cute white innocent cat.
And im just speechless and hungry for words at that point of time.
That Bitch just stood there...didnt do anything else.!
so i carried the dead cat to the a nearby grass..
and then my hands was full of the cat's BLOOD...
i sat there for a long time though.
and that bitch came to me and apologise.
man,u should have apologise to the cat you bitch! Not me!
u're such a DUMBASS!
after that she walk off...
Im soo gonna her break car...u'll see..
well....i sat there for sometime...
at 2.35am...i buried the cat at a nearby area.
its was a sad moment though and i felt lyke crying at that point of time.
it did made me realised something though.
that life is like a "Match Stick"...
its like another second,its usable...
and another second,its unusable.
there's no way that you can make it light back again after u lit it.
just like the cat...
another moment he was struggling for breath..
and another moment,he's gone..just like that.
but one thing for sure..
i will break her car...eventhough it cant bring the cats life back.
but at least she will taste the feeling of being out of breath for sometime.
so yea...thats all i guess for today..
CHAOWSS!

2009-08-30T16:01:00.004+08:00

well...
i guess im doing okay...
after buying a stack of cadbury chocolates from "SHOP N SAVE"
and ate it inside my room alone + starring at those pictures on the wall ..
i guess im feeling much better.
and to those who knows about the pictures..
plz...just keep it low okay...thanks.
i kinda feel hollow when i look at those photograph..
after all the disappointment,patience and heart broken for lots and lots of times.
its gone. Just like that. yea,in a blink of an eye.
im just left with no more words to Say, to Explain and to Convince to her.
coz afterall..its just no use.
well...im not even her friend,her best friend or someone she would care about anymore.
im just invisible coz thats how she has been treating me.
and the sad part was,everyone deserve a second chance...
that includes from her close friends to her hatred enemies.
they all deserve a chance...
but i dont..
so im just transparent after all..? FUCK!
You really made me like a KITE.
letting me go ... and then reel it back whenever you feel like
why cant you just state proper reason...
Once and for all....! just a reasonable reason.
not those half distorted reasons u're giving me.
Espeacially all this..."idk"....fuck ! i hate that word.!
you kept me moving back and forth bcoz of that stupid word.
hais....im a guy with lots of emotion entering me at the same time right now.
just can describe how it feel to be this way...shit!
just give me a REASON...
so i wont be like this...plz
haiss.

2009-08-30T00:16:00.004+08:00

Well i wonder.
Where did i go wrong this time.
coz i know i didnt.
i regret.
i regret every single little thing.
well...you have those features just like her.
but i didnt thought you could be just like her. damn!
maybe every person that have those features like her is a killer after all..
so what should i do this time.?
can anyone plz...just give me a call and talk to me...
i need someone to talk with.
hais.

2009-08-27T04:05:00.018+08:00

I miss Aym.

i miss Mahd

I miss my northlanders friend:)
reasons to keep me smiling like this was bcoz you were around at that point of time. And i really miss this moment.
but after awhile, im broken and i guess you didnt care at all.
I MISS THIS ROAD.
:)
I miss Tomoki.
I Miss you BRO.
I miss Pointing Middle finger.
Dear Best friend:)
And i Miss my long lost best friend.

I miss everything and everyone.

2009-08-26T00:27:00.005+08:00

me:)

webcam with Wen Bin...

LOL!
again and again:)

Well...sometimes it go...

and sometimes it come back...

i dont know when it gonna end...

and yea,i miss you so much though..

but...too bad.

2009-08-23T03:56:00.000+08:00

well..
having a hard time sleeping.
my head hurt so much.
it hurts really badly..Damn!
its not a head-ache.
its not a migrane.
its something else.
i know its something else.
man....felt like dying.
i wonder if i still have the strength to fast later on.
hais.

2009-08-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

Fasting month is around the corner..
sooner then i thought..
well...i guess....
im ready for it...LOL!
soo...
its been crucial this few weeks..
but thank god i have the strength to endure it.
coolness!
and yea,i seem more relax then last time.
maybe im back to my old self..
and thats the way i used to behave.LOL!
everyone seems to come and go....
just like those sicko's...
well, i dont care...
i dont lose a thing...
just do what you want...
coz having people like them in my life...
was so freaking suckish...
it made my life miserable...
and now they're gone...im so freaking happy.!
no more heart pain,no more trouble.
oh yea,im just cherishing my life now...
thats the most precious things to do.
so yea, SAYONARA!:)
semoga semua umat-umat islam berpuasa..
PUASA! jngn tk PUASA!

2009-08-17T04:19:00.002+08:00

my fav childhood song and cartoon:)

2009-08-10T02:31:00.001+08:00

Just Disappointed.
Plus...migrane is all over my head now.
Nothing Left to say.
CHAOWS!

2009-08-09T01:03:00.003+08:00

Aiseh man!!
later on going out for National Day celebration..
i wont be the same.
lets see who i get to meet at town later on.
i wont be surprise if i were to see that someone.
and i wont sit around and just watch like an asshole.
if it got to end,then i got nothing left to say...hoho!
lets gamble life and hurt someone today...
im gonna make someone cry with bloody tears..i swear to god.
im just paranoid plus super energetic today.
im gonna hurt you back just like what you did to me last time.
CHAOWS!

2009-08-07T04:56:00.000+08:00

Well...i miss her so much though.

but infact im still forcing myself to forget her.

why the fuck does it have to end this way man.!?!

maybe its just impossible to forget her.

i swear to god its impossible.

i dont have the strength to stay away from her anymore.

im now 15% Paranoid. 85% Disappointed.

so what should i do man.?

i cant even sleep well..

this thing has been affecting me so much.

hais.

2009-08-05T05:13:00.003+08:00

Well...i heard Burn got into hostel.
12 months.
damn!thats long.
Im gonna miss him alot.
hopefully,he will be in his best behaviour so that he can get out from there ASAP.
im gonna miss him...hell yea.
Pity Brian...
he's the only one left...
not only Burn,but Bg when to RTC too..
2 of his brothers when in and he's e only one left.
i wonder is Brian doing alright.
without both them,it would be silent all the way in his house.
there wouldnt be any chaos like last time.
Brian, i hope you're doing alright.
i'll always be here for you when you need me.
take care bro.anything just beep me.
and i'll be praying for Burn and Bg to get out from there ASAP.
so that you wont be lonely at home.
so thats all i guess...
Chaows!

2009-08-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

something wrong with this fucking blog again.
cant even upload pictures..damn! that suck!
well..
she's being nice to me...thats a surprise
after all this long years of hating me...
she suddenly being so nice to me?
okay,spit it out man!
whats your fucking motive.?
i know you're into something.
"Asking me how am i?"
"telling me that you miss me alot?"
"never stop giving love at TAGGED?"
"never stop giving comments at TAGGED?"
"trying to be a sweet talk mother fucker?"
LOL! wtf!
wtf are you trying to do?!
are you lack of guys or something.?
coz serious shit i dont need people like you..freak!
u're a sicko!
fuck off! and dont even think im gonna give you another chance.
after all you did to me...i learnt my lesson.
(Lesson 1: Dont be attach to an inmature people.)
especially people like you.
you're the youngest ex-girlfriend i've ever had.
and i declare that im too dumb to believe all those inmature words you said.
LOL!
so thats all..
i've said what i got to say.
CHAOWS!

2009-08-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

yes uh..
finally got a new phone..
but still..
im gonna send my N95 for repair..
coz that phone still the freaking best.
i miss my N95..haiss
so yea...thats all i guess...
take care:)

2009-07-27T03:34:00.003+08:00

today,i felt so sick when all the warnings got me down.
this will be the last!
i've made my point of life!
somehow i regret knowing people like you..
your love for me last only for few months..
well my love for you has never change at all...
and infact you think i was lying all this while though
all this while i've been through waiting thinking you would come back..
its all just a waste...and it wont happen thats for sure.
it sucks coz you've move on and i dont.
i dont know why the fuck im still waiting.
im just a stupid asshole! im stupid man! seriously.
oh god! just bring me back to 9 June 2006 man..
at least i could keep note and keep myself away from knowing them.
especially her!.
shit! i really regret knowing her...
come on spyke ...get a lifee! free urself from all this shit!!!

2009-07-25T16:52:00.005+08:00

so yea,

tawn with Yunizar yesterday...

we talk and talk and talk.

after that went for cycling.

from yishun to woodlands ...LOL!

and then he was tired...LOL!

pity him.

so yea,i had a great time talking to you dude.

it some sort like release all my stress out..

and SHE thought it was all a joke..

so...that makes you the first person to know.

even if youre the second person to find out.

this is between you and me dude...

dont tell anyone else aite...

and a reminder....be pre-cautions of them..

dun give ur full hope to them or else u'll be like me.

so take care...

and thats all i guess..

CHAOWS!

2009-07-25T16:32:00.004+08:00

On the second thought.
i love you so much.
so why should i do this?
nvm then..
SPYKE!! get a life and move on!!
why izzit so hard man..
haiss...
im upset.

2009-07-24T18:23:00.004+08:00

Are you here to save the world?
The odds are running against you.
Every day the same impression that something will change.
Today I felt so SICK when all the WARNINGS got me down.
All we are is a voice without a sound.

Face the PROBLEM, lead the way to no solution.
Raise your flag in victory
when you lost more than you had.
It's all gone.

Now, it's more than a DREAM and it's dying next to me.
If we had so much more then what would we be FIGHTING for?
Our days go by, we're killing time with so much in our way
But it's ALWAYS THE SAME.

I remember when we were faces in the hall.
Now what's left are MEMORIES, posters on the wall.
We're getting by with NO DIRECTION faster than we know.
It feels like we've not been winning all along.
No more

LETS TURN IT OFF, and walk away.
I don't want to know what we were thinking.
Let's turn it off and walk away.
No, I DONT WANT TO KNOW AT ALL.

2009-07-23T20:39:00.006+08:00

Dear......
i may look like im kidding or joking around or talking crap.
but infact,its all the truth.
i hope u'll remember what ive said.
i hope u'll cherish all my words.
and i hope my words are like a REMINDER to you.
i know i look stupid saying all those things coz its just a waste of time after all.
and you know that im wasting my breath either.
i've been praying every single day for you to wake up.
and i hope one find day you'll realise it.

2009-07-23T17:59:00.005+08:00

My Name And My Culture. thanks brian:)

Well...
just came back from school.
today was quite okay but still...
im not feeling very okay.
i've tried alot of ways.
and i guess its just worthless.
coz i just cant stop thinking bout it.
thats just pathetic though.
so yea,let it slide.
so thats all i guess..
take care.
Chaows!

2009-07-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

Ive lost everything.
Ive lost hope and faith.
i've give up on everything.
and again,i surrender.
so...thats all i guess...

2009-07-22T07:19:00.002+08:00

Best friend:)
When i get to know the truth,
it hurts.
but it hurts more when people out there are telling lies.
and i get to find out.
Liars are two face busted.
cause they will always intend to save their self.
and doesnt even care about the others.
so what goes around,comes around.
lying to other people is the same as lying to yourself.
it wont bring you anywhere.
coz you'll just keep turning around the same spot.
and unfortunately,you'll just get stuck.
so its no use lying.
the guiltyness inside you will still remain there.
until you tell the truth to the other party.
if only,lies dont exist...
peace will eventually emerge in this world.

2009-07-21T23:59:00.004+08:00

Our First Met:)

Happy Birthday Dian ..
May All Your Wishes Come True.

2009-07-21T23:12:00.003+08:00

i cant cry coz im out of tears.
i cant punch coz my hand was already in pain.
i cant smoke coz im out of ciggarettes.
i cant talk to my love ones coz they're gone.
so what else can i do man!?
what can i do to make this burning and disappointing feeling inside me go away?
oh god,u decides.
i surrender,i give up.
im in a terrible state now.
oh god,just show me the way to cool down.
thats all i need for now.

2009-07-21T01:58:00.005+08:00

So...today was just a disappointment.
my N95 died.
and i cried like a baby man.
thats pathetic though.
but yea,its worth my freaking tears.
that phone hold up all those memories i kept..
its been years i keep it..
all the hard times and good times.
all the PRECIOUS messages..i repeat it again,"PRECIOUS" messages.
those pictures.
and every single thing.
and today,its rest in peace.
leaving me with tears and nothing else more.
why!? why man!?
thats all i got...
just to support me standing straight and not falling down .
but nw its gone...i got nothing else more.
thats all im left with.
wtf man!
im really lost.
if only ii got the ability to revives my phone. SHIT!
so yea,nw im left with nothing else.
nothing.
just a disappointment.
seriously..
im dying):

2009-07-18T02:29:00.012+08:00

U're the one that makes me happy by just looking at you. U're the one that makes me eager to get my license. U're the one that makes me force myself to be a bike surgeon.U're the one that gonna bring me to my La La Land. U're the one that gonna makes me feel the wind. U're the one that gonna bring me everywhere. U're the one that gonna makes me the next "Valentino Rossi".
U're the one im left with at this moment.And last but not least,U're the one that gonna seduce me and bring my life to an END.(so yea,say hello to my wife.Rs 125! Cant wait to ride you man!:)

Brian and Me:) bomberman eyes:)
Kate. (so say hello to your twins)

Cagiva Planet.

after experimenting with it. its done:)

Today,went to Bedok North with my dad.

to give my dads friend a help at his workshop.

since he's lack of workers.
so....there it goes.

yeap,the bike is done.

just need to change those air-filters.

repair those rear brake due to rusty-ness.

and lastly,battery.

yea,the battery's dead...

need to replace a new ones.

so yea,its done and "VROOM-VROOM"

able to start again.

but ...right now my back is aching like hell man.

if only theres someone who willing to massage my back..lol!

my dad is busy repairing his bike though.

so,im on one man show repairing the "Cagiva Planet".

that sucks though.

but thank god it has ended.

so...tmr got work to do again.

gonna follow my cuzzy to her work place and help her with the filing.

got to file up thousands of papers accordingly to its date i guess. damn.

so...yea,im off to slp..

and anyone cares to massage my back for an hour...?

i'll give you 10 bucks for that...hahahaha!

2009-07-14T00:55:00.007+08:00

zufee says fuck you:)Almost forget.
i found out another new cure to everyday of my life...
Yea! its ZUFEE...
the one who never fails to make me smile man.
seems to forget every single problems when i was with him...coolness!
everything about him is funny.
his face,his attitude,his reaction and many2 more man..
too much to describe.
i find him the best friend i've ever had in my whole life.
just wanna say thanks bro for cheering me up every single day.
u're the cure to my pain.. and u're the antidote to my poison.
just a glance at your face will bring me a smile..
so...see ya in school bro...take care:)

2009-07-13T23:29:00.005+08:00

today...was overall okay.
zufee paitau sia....rabak sak bro
he didnt attend school today..
was disappointed though..
coz he's the only guy that can put a smile on my face the whole day.
my big hopes expecting him to come has been crush to a smaller pieces man.
well...too bad then.
but im gonna make sure he attends school tomorrow.LOL!
its a must!
well...after day-dreaming,emo-ing and thingking for 46 hour,8 mins,27second ...
without sleep,without food....just rely on water and ciggarettes.
it finally came to end.
im restless now.
but yea,i got the answers. thank god.
today was the most tiring day coz i've been not sleeping for the past few days.
we was learning all those binary codes in school today.
and i started to see all those numbers out of shape.LOL!
so i laid my head on the table and POOF! i knock out...
and yea,Mdm Lai was like.."AHMAD!"
and i was like "wtf! i fall asleep?!"
after 5 mins..
again i see those binary codes disfigured...dammit
i really cnt take it...fall asleep again..
there she goes again. "AHMAD! wake up! go wash ur face!"
i woke up..
straight to the toilet..
and take 5.! LOL! smokers know what that means.
after that...went back to class..
with a half tired and half alert face.
and carry on doing my school work...
so yea,another tragedy.
slept inside the bus while otw home just now.
woke up it was at interchange already....with no passengers and no bus driver inside.
dammit! again!?
stand up...straight to the driver seat like a PRO...
find those stupid door button...lol!
wtf man! ..it happens again..
walk off from the bus with a slumber sleepy face.
and wait for another bus.
reach home...lie on the sofa.
Msg her that i cant make it.
coz im too tired...
sorry..
and yea,POOFS! all the way sleep till 11.
so yea,thats all i guess for today..
lazy wanna update...the story is too freaking long.
LOL!
CHAOWS!

2009-07-13T01:32:00.005+08:00

One simple picture describe everything. Coolness. I love it!

Say Cheese To my camera and my middle finger. Fuckers!

You tell a tale.

2009-07-12T00:42:00.004+08:00

im down.
totally down.
my dear cuzzy has been calling me every now and then to cheer me up..
but yea,still the same though.
and last year,20/08/2008 was saddest day of my life.
so i suppose this year,today was my most saddest day of all.
12/07/2009...im gonna keep track of it.
nobody could cheer me up.
nobody,
im assure of that.

Oh God,i dont have the strength anymore. i really dont.
you have not been answering my prayers for a long time.
And i guess i've been left out after all.
I surrender. i had enough of everything.
you've taken all the ones that i love.
and you leave me with nothing else more.
i dont have the strength to endure this.
i've lost all my faith.
please give me the faith to hold on.
you're the only one im left with.
nothing else matter.

You've been gone for 2 years now.
you're the most important person in my life at that point of time.
you're the one that makes me smile.
you're the one that cheer me up.
you're the one that keep my spirits up to the highest point of galaxy.
i still remember all those things you gave me every single day.
i still remember all those kisses you gave me every single day.
those words,those jokes you crack and every single thing.
you're best person that i've ever encounter in my life.
but knowing that you're gone that day,
was my worst nightmare.
im just speecless and breathless.
im upset and disappointed that you have to leave so soon.
i really am.
now that you're gone..
everything change..
every single thing and that includes me.
im no longer the "ahmad bin nanwar" i guess.
im just a useless person now.
i give up easily. i've lost faith in everything.
im so sorry i became like this.
Dear Grandma, you're always be in my heart. i love you.)':

2009-07-10T03:37:00.008+08:00

cant get to slp.
i think too much i guess.
too much thoughts in my mind.
cant clear it.
its already 4 in the morning right now.
gonna suffer in school later on.
soo....going to Lower Seletar after this.
feel like letting out all those mix feelings inside me.
i feel like shouting out loud though.
so yea,Lower Seletar is the best place. Especially at this hour.
well...every word is a misconception man.
if only i didnt learnt how to speak and communicate with others. damn

Dear Vivian.
bout your latest post.
here's what i got to say.
Nothing last forever:)
keep that in mind.

2009-07-09T00:10:00.005+08:00

After all this years of waiting.
yea,it really gaves me the idea to write a song bout what im feeling.
it suddenly came out of nowhere while i was day-dreaming. LOL!
still havent get the title for the song though...
so yea,here it goes...

I'm covered in the wasted youth
Tied down to the floor
I'm getting tired of the abuse
but still I'm coming back for more

You gave me wrong directions
On a path to self destruction
No one around us could believe
You wouldnt let me breath

So there we were
A mark without a trace
So there we were
Remembering...

We'll hide away on different grounds.
While I keep hanging on, hanging on to you

But there's only one way down
We crash into the past
There's only one way down
We crash into the past
There's only one

You gave me indecision
Every move with your permission
Lost in a world with no sublime
And running out of time

So here we are
A mark without a trace
So here we are
Remembering

We'll hide away on different grounds
While I keep hanging on, hanging on to you

But there's only one way down
We crash into the past
There's only one way down
We crash into the past
There's only one
There's only one...

This is the end of the way that I'm feeling.
Got caught by the words that never had meaning.
But I'm hanging on to you..

One way down
We crash into the past
There's only ONE way down.
We crash into the past.

2009-07-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

maybe,i should be a hardcore punk again.

and not giving people faces at all.

and that guy. its all because of you.

you're the destroyer. you're the shit to everything.

if you werent exist,maybe my life would be better.

so yea,revenge is revenge. u're not gonna get away with this.

im gonna destroy your freaking life just like you destroy mine.

just wait dude. one fine day u gonna get it.

im gonna teach you a lesson to not stuck ur face into peoples business.

so,the time will come. just wait and wait.

2009-07-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

things change i guess.
im quite disappointed today.....really am.
still wondering do you really mean it.
or is it just another tale.
im just lost and alone in this life that i've led.
i cant even think straight right now. dammit.

2009-07-05T23:12:00.005+08:00

Me and Dian:)

Me:)

Well..
blogger are getting shitter and shitter.
im having problems uploading pictures...damn!
so yea,i took a longer way to upload this..wtf man
oh well....such a boring day today.
they seems to be busy.
so yea,im left at home with nothing to do.
thats sux though.
well...thats all i guess...take care
chaows!
im gone for good.

2009-07-04T12:48:00.003+08:00

On the Second Thought.
im just gonna remain Calm.

2009-07-01T18:04:00.002+08:00

Didnt smoke for the whole day.
trying my freaking best to quit.
coz i wanna be a better person
but i bet people will hate me if i were to quit smoking.
yea,because i will intend to explode for a stupid reasons.
I GOT PROBLEMS!
yea,i got problems of CONTROLING MY ANGER.
i need to go for anger management program. but i didnt.
coz i found out that there's a solution to my problems.
firstly,ciggarettes.
and lastly,my most precious person in life.
yea,they made me calm easily.
but too bad...coz im left with no choice other then smoking.
and right now,im hit by paranoia.
Shit!
lets see what type of person would i become today without those two in my life.
seriously,what a life man! what a life!

2009-06-30T22:02:00.003+08:00

well...
woke up...
bathe...
then straight to SSDC to take my Basic Theory Test for car..
and yea,i made it.
I passed my Basic Theory Test..
coolness..
after that went to book for my Final Theory Test.
and yeap while waiting for the long Q...
went to check for motorbike practical lesson.
and yeap,was surprise coz they have slot available for today.
Coolness!
yeap,book the practical imediately...
it was at 5.55pm.
and again,i passed my practical lesson. Woohoo!
but yea,my back is aching like hell...
due to sitting on the motorbike for so long.lol!
okay...thats all for today i guess..
CHAOWS!

2009-06-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

2009-06-28T23:49:00.005+08:00

Before.

After.

(me and buddy) and fuck, this was after dying grey. damn! shit!

After bleaching my hair...

again,after bleaching my hair...like mat sia! wah lau wei...i hate it.

so now what?

im not a mat.

but my hair colour made me a mat. damn!

Fuck hair dye!

shit!

im gonna dye back black tmr...

serious shit,i hate this colour.

its not my type.

im so stress and upset because of you till my hair change colour. LOL! u Suck.

okay then..im frustrated right now..

so...thats all i guess.

CHAOWS!

2009-06-28T00:20:00.003+08:00

I'll take this as easy as I can make it seem

You'll keep me, me guessing

Act like you still believe

There's a time and place for everything

The words you spoke, the words he said"How could this happen to me?"

Wake up and turn around

Your game's the flame, it's burning out

And now you mean nothing to me...

You make it so easy to just walk away

You'll take me for granted

As we both know you have

There's a time and place for everything

The words you spoke, the words he said"How could this happen to me?"

Wake up and turn around

Your game's the flame, it's burning out

And now you mean nothing to me...

And so replace every dream you've had

And find your way back home

This time you'll be on your own

And I'll be waiting there with your hopes

The hopes of better days

And a love that won't fade away

And I've been feeling so lost, but I won't let it show

Into your arms I've fallen once again

There's a time and place for everything

The words you spoke, the words he said"How could this happen to me?"

Wake up and turn around

Your game's the flame, it's burning out

And now you mean nothing to me...

There's a time and place for everything (So I wake up)

The words you spoke, the words he said (Wake up)

"How could this happen to me?" (How could this happen to me)

Wake up and turn around (So I wake up)

Your game's the flame, it's burning out (Wake up)

So don't let it burn out on me

2009-06-25T01:28:00.017+08:00

Me:)

Taken From Inside the car..

My bro:)
Kampong boy...lol! My Beloved dad:)
And my Beloved Mom:)

My Irritating bro...yet,i still love him.
Tired face..
Yea,im bored... Nothing to do.
My New House...LOL! NICE:) And Ofcoz..The bubble Boy...

Mee Curry....Damn! its delicious....You should try it.

okay...here are the pictures taken when i was away to malaysia.

Didnt get to take picture of my grandpa..coz he was sick...

so yea,thats all i guess..

take care!

2009-06-24T04:19:00.005+08:00

so yea,just came back from malaysia...
cnt wait to get home...seriously
so yea,nw im bck..
i feel weird though..
i feel empty...
i feel like i lost half of my heart...
what the heck man!
and YOUR face keep appearing whenever i close my eyes...
i cant even rest in peace..
i've tried alot of things...
but it doesnt work.
why are you doing this to me man.?
im gonna die...sooner than what you expected..hais
everything in me is about you..
like wth man.!
(sadness within)

2009-06-22T21:57:00.010+08:00

sooo..
yea,not feeling well...
got a sore throat...
yeap,thats the symptoms of me not feeling well..
but still...
going to East Coast later on...
yeap,taking a break..
gonna relax at seaside..
gonna put aside all those problems...
and chill...
soo...im hoping i will better by tmr...
Hopefully.
soooooo....yea,
thats all i guess..
Chaows!.
"My words are like Carbon Monoxide....and their words are like Oxygen right?."

2009-06-21T01:01:00.008+08:00

i miss everything:(

ViVian:)
the Scenery..

Yea,Yishun Damp...
Yunizar...

Expressway...

Simple Plan- The End

I've been trying to tell you something..

But you never understand....

I feel like we've been going 'round in circles...

You look at me like I've become A stranger on the streets,

A skeleton that's been hiding in your closet..

I see you next to me but still you feel so far away...

Where did we go wrong?

I guess this is the part where you look at me and say goodbye...

Don't, don't let me go...

It's not the end,

Girl you know it's not so bad...

It's not the end,

you know it's not the end...

I've been around the world And I've seen so many things

I can't even tell you where I'm going

But no matter where I'm heading

And no matter what I do..

Something keeps me coming back to you...

what can I do when you're gone?

When it feels so wrong...

What can I say To make you wanna stay?

So what can I do.?

Don't leave me this way....

Cause it feels so wrong...

Let's stop all these games

Cause I just can't say goodbye..

Don't, don't let me go

It's not the end,

Girl you know it's not so bad

It's not the end,

You know it's not the end

A perfect song. A perfect lyrics.

Coolness! simple plan rules! lol!

2009-06-19T03:00:00.007+08:00

At Lower Seletar...

Zhu Zhu...or Xiao Zhu...or Piglet...LOL! yea,just wanted to show some appreciation for brightening up my day with those cute smiles you gave..lol! you're cute yet adorable. Cnt deny that:)

And ofcoz,My buddy!....whose always there for me...whose always be by my side...Whose always encountering the same problem as me. And yea,we share our problems through thick and thin. Buddy,im glad that now you know the truth. The secret that i've kept from our classmates! No one in our class knows,except for you. You hold my Secret...lol! And! dont change your shampoo! i love you hair smell!...lol!
And yea,Tomoki...who understands everything what i feels....who doesnt stop trying to cheer me up.....you're like part of my family now...

and you're always been there for me...i appreacite it alot....Thanks Tomoki.... If Only_______________. that would be coolness..
its okay to be a copycat. its okay to try new stuffs. LOL! :)

i got nothing left to say...

take care!

CHAOWS!

2009-06-17T04:07:00.006+08:00

When im Lost...

Everything seems to change..Shit!

starting to forget everything...

Even my voice change.

so yea,i've upload it due to certain reasons..

have fun.

2009-06-16T12:49:00.008+08:00

Well...
the truth had been exposed. and,
that sucks! especially the last part...that hurts the most man.
no wonder she hate me so much.
if i were to be her,i would probably hate that person too.
but now,i hope you understand...
i've send you back all the explanations.
its at ur hotmail, incase you dont know.
thats for you to know and erase those misunderstanding past.
coz i didnt do that. i have no idea at all.
i have no idea that you thought we were together before...i dont.
im just blank. totally.
i dont have any more words.
i dont have any more explanations.
thats all i got.
thats all the facts.

2009-06-16T03:55:00.002+08:00

hah! tkmu banyak bunyi uh..
aku sentiasa tngu kau nye offer.
butoh...tk puas sini kita try...
banyak bunyi,tapi tkde reaction..LOL!
perangai mat kental buah sia! haha! butoh uh!

2009-06-15T03:07:00.002+08:00

My Birthday Gifts. And yea,a retarded Punk. LOL!

Me and Dian....Our first met:)

Thanks Dear,it matches perfectly with my Spikes:)

i cant sleep...
coz im upset...
about something that i've done wrong...
im so disappointed.
coz i just knew the most important person in my life is gone.
yea, she is the most important person in my life...not you.
coz she is the person im inlove with. not you.
and the problem is,shes long gone bcoz of me.
im so Sorry.
and to my long lost PRECIOUS,
i can still remember the first time we met.
and yea,i miss you so much.
i still remember the lovely message that you sent me 3 years back.
its the day that we were suppose to be together.
and im sorry for being such a JERK.
coz i didnt even put any effort to reply ur message.Im Sorry.
and things turns out to be a misconception after that day.
so....maybe its already too late to tell you this..
but i'll just go on to let you know whats been happening that time.
i know that day was suppose to be our special day.
but it turns out that i was in a terrible state with my parents.
they were gonna send me to those freaking "boys home" due to certain reasons.
i know i broke my Promises. but you got to understand.
it all clashes at once. and i cant even think right that time.
and yea,to tell you the truth my feelings for you hasnt change at all.
but sitting at the railing..trying to do something stupid..
i was mad at you bcoz of that. thats the reason i didnt even talk to you.
and the best part was,
i was about to talk things out and explain every single little things that happened...
but...yea,i get to know that you were with him.
that was.... hais. forget it..
and yea,that drove me turning back.
i was totally blank at that point of time.
i cant do anything,
i cant afford to break you guys up.
and yea,all i could do was WAIT...thats all.
i tried to keep you both together.
i tried my best to settle those problems that you both encounter.
yea,i dont want you to get hurt....coz i still CARE.
about why didnt i tell you that i still have feelings for you?
it bcoz im trapped in between...
and yea,telling you that would break you guys up...
i can afford to do that to my own friend..
so please understand...please
i know that is too late...yea,im a JERK.
but please just come back...
coz she's killing me.
she's not the person im inlove with,its you
yea you.
i miss you so much. hais.
i will still be here waiting for you to return Dear...

2009-06-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

Argh. Shit.

2009-06-11T00:36:00.005+08:00

Idk how many times must i upload this...lol!

well...My birthday was overall...Not GOOD!.

I have a suckish day man!.

only the first part was the most touching part...

after that....its all the bullshit!...

haha! hell yea,its bullshit!

so....today doesnt seem so good...

lost my cigarette...

My Eyes is in pain due to using four months old contacts...lol!

nvm,its ok if i become blind...

coz im sick and tired seeing all those shits...i had enough.

and if i were to be my old self again...

that guy would have been dead by now...i swear to god.

here's what i got to say.

"Kau perangai jangan mcm MAT KENTAL BUAH uh"

mampos tknk...menyusahkan orang.

tk kuasa uh nk layan budak kental mcm kau.

and get a life man!

im too pissed off...

shit!

if only ......haiss forget it.

thats all i guess...

chaows!

2009-06-09T01:49:00.010+08:00

This gonna be the happiest moment of my life.

Me and Brian:)

This is me:)
the moral of the story is,Zufee's Face cn change in a split second...LOL!

My mystery CuppyCake:)

So....Happy Birthday Spyke.

May all ur wishes come true.

may god answer all ur prayers. *hopefully*

so yea,im 18..Thats Fast.! LOL!

License! here i Come!

and yeap,thats gonna be both....Motorbike and Car.

hell yea:)

and Nami,thanks:)

and yeap.i miss my grandma too...hais.

soo...

this is just a short update.

haaha! i wanna sleep:)

Take Care.!

Chaows!

2009-06-07T15:38:00.007+08:00

Me and Tomoki
Tomoki:)
Our Drink...LOL!

Me and Bella.

so yea,just got back from the BBQ...

and yeap,straight away went to sleep...

From 8.30am to 3.00pm.

Yeap,was damn tiring..didnt have enough sleep.

the BBQ was okay overall...

just that some things were way off their plan.

and yea,it was an irritating night too.

lol! brian,you should know what im trying to say..haha!

im keeping my mouth shut.

to make things better..

so yea,i was being rude to someone too...Im sorry.

this was the only way that i could end this.

maybe it doesnt work for you,but it works for me really well.

and things were better off to be this way then last time.

Hope you understand.

hmm...okay,what else...

oh yea,im bored to death right now.LOL!

so yea,thats all..

till here then.

Chaows!

2009-06-06T01:37:00.013+08:00

Everything seems to change.
everything seems to be different.
hais.3 more days to go..
i guess it wont be the same..
my mom and dad....so call gone case.
like ive said,it wont end...
and to that someone.
it seems that "Lies" is part of your life.
you cant live without "lying"..
you're the same..that wont change.
you tell lies in order to survive...thats your purpose of living.
but lying to the others is as good as lying to urself.
maybe someday you'll know why i say that.
i cant change you even if you give me a million years.
But only you can change yourself.
and im just disappointed. Yea, im really disappointed.
it hurts.
.

2009-06-04T15:01:00.002+08:00

so yea, parents quarreling till now.
im sure they wont stop.
why does things like this have to happen when my birthday is approching.?
5 more days man! at least give me some face!
i've tried everything to stop this shit...
but too bad...it wont work out...
Coolness!
Last Resort..
CABOT!
yea,was planing on a trip..LOL!
still deciding where to go.
oh yea,almost forget...i got a new bike.
that will make things easier for me to go everywhere..
i dont wanna stay home,coz it sucks!
seeing them quarreling like FOOK! LOL!
so yea,im done with packing.
just have to decide where to go next.
im gonna leave at night maybe.
so thats all....
SAYONARA...
and SAYONARA to my MOM and DAD in advance!
Happy Quarreling and forget about us! thank you!

2009-06-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

You were very Sweet today...

I melt like a liquid...LOL!

thanks again:)

and the funny part was...

we're like Romeo and Juliet sia....HAHAHAHA!

and the Juliet like kena Kidnapped and was left behind bars.

and the most freaking funny part was,

only the head of Juliet cn escape through those bars.

due to having a gap for only the size of the head.HAHAHA! wth.

Cant stop laughing man. LOL!

and dont stress bout those problems okay...

just chill and pray that nothing will happen later on.

hmmm...okay...what else?

oh yea,i hope god will answer my prayers.

coz all i ever wanted was a peaceful family living in happiness

and me getting to be with my "precious" for the rest of my life.

oh yea,i think too much for the second part i guess.LOL!

but...yea,cant help it. HAHAHA!

so thats all..

nothing else matter man.

i hope they will be okay and not drag it till my "precious day" arrives.

so yea, 6 more days to go.

6 more days to e enrolment of my license.

damn,im so excited:)

2009-05-31T23:18:00.005+08:00

LOL! im a gatsby freak.

Gatsby,Gatsby,Gatsby....and it continue.

Missing you is my every DAY routine.

Caring for you is my every HOUR routine.

Loving you is my every MINUTES routine.

Treasuring you is my every SECONDS routine.

Sometime its good and sometime its bad.

And as for today,Im disappointed.

short and simple.

CHAOWS!

2009-05-29T20:46:00.008+08:00

12.13am inside northpoint..LOL!

Was eager to collect all of them. 2 more to go!
Power Stand at a bicycle lot:)

playing the Guitar:)
Kate:)
Lastly,Me and Brian.

So yea,im bored.

Updating my blog will kill the boredom i guess.

school was overall okay today.

just that,i cant take my phase test coz im not in a proper attire.

just bcoz im wearing jeans...Damn.

so yea,too bad...

my test will be postpone to next friday bcoz of this shit.

so later on,going out with brian...

waiting for him to come yishun

then we got one big project to settle...LOL! wth!

so yea,thats all i guess for today...take care.

CHAOWS!

2009-05-27T22:35:00.010+08:00

i knw,my face is freak...

ANG & PUNK unite! and we become like this..LOL!
Dinner...Before And After:) thanks bro:)

Circuit Board.! SHIT! its complicated man!

Well..

today was a Suckish day..

Kena caught smoking outside wearing school uniform..lol!

and yea,its our DM who caught us if im not wrong.

bringing digital camera out of nowhere...and snap pictures of us

while we were smoking peacefully.....lol! wtf man! wtf!

but yea,he gave us chances...thank god!

and he nag alot though..

well,i show part of my true colours today...

haiyo! what a shame man! im disappointed!

was too angry and too fuck up...cant help it..

after so long trying to camouflage the real me..

its all gone down to the drain man...im so disappointed in myself. hais.

what a waste that i explode bcoz of a stupid things..DAMN!

well....i got nothing left to say...

SAYONARA.

2009-05-27T00:21:00.004+08:00

LOL! thats all i cn say.

My New Bestfriend. She reminds me of someone who used to be my bestfriend. BUNNY EARS! LOL! wth.

Im Happy!

Because everything is over.

Im Happy!

That this feeling is over.

Thanks to her.ily.

you're still there in my heart hiding. LOL!

i was shaken like an earthquake when i thought its gone.

and yea,its still there.

just that i couldnt feel it like i used to coz its just not the right time yet.

you'll always be there in my heart and thats a confirm.!

patience is all i need. and yea,i've overcome it. THANK GOD!

so yea...lets wait.

wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait until the right time arrives.

so yea...for now! STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY...

thats all i will do.haha!

okay! thats all! i knw im typing shit!

but just bcoz its shit doesnt mean it is shit! LOL!

ok wadever...

CHAOWS!

2009-05-25T16:09:00.003+08:00

When im so stressed up.!

So yea,
Just reach home.
Was feeling better nw.
hmm...this Qs pop up out of nowhere while i was otw home...LOL!
what will you do if you can turn back time?
hell yea,if i could turn back the time,
i would turn it back to those moments.
those sweet moments.
but too bad...i have no powers man! HAIYO!
and yea,his face was distorted..LOL!
His nose was so call SENGET.
and yea,thats for messing with a decent guy like me..LOL!
one more thing,
i was scared to death when i thought the feeling was gone.
but thank god...its still there...
those words are repeating in my ears nw...LOL!
and i enjoy hearing it..haha!

2009-05-25T00:49:00.009+08:00

So yea, in the morning.

i mean, 3+ AM in the morning...

tawn with Brian and his gang at sengkang.

they went for riding from Toa Payoh to Senkang.

and yeap,they meet me at Sengkang.

we hang around till 6+AM...coz all of them cnt take it anymore..

they were very slpy to death.lol!

especially BRIAN LIM.

LOL! he's slping outside the 7/11 peacefully man.

and bro...these pictures that i took are the surprise...haha!

so yea...we all went home..

i went home to yishun.

oh yea,its an exhausting day man.

i cnt imagine hw they went home in that of situation.

plus cycling from sengkang back to Toa Payoh...

it must have been very devastating..

oh yea,reach home.

and straight away slp..

cnt help it .

was too tired.

after that woke up arnd 3+...and went back to sengkang..

this time went with my bro...

My cuzz plan to go for KARAOKE.

damn,its just that...

its my first time.

im nt used to it...

so yea,overall was okay.

but! i still prefer Jamming then going for KARAOKE.LOL

anyway,its 1.06AM now..

and i still havent have my deep sleep yet..

my eyes are almost shut now...

so yea,i guess...

i'll end my update here.

CHAOWS

2009-05-23T16:55:00.006+08:00

mirror:)

Me and My bro Its funny that my looks changes everytime. (baby me,nerdy me,Punky me,decent me and current me)

Im bored to DEATH!

seriously...

so yea,im just updating for fun.

thats all...

so...ill update again later at night..

Chaows!